hair

and the reason we dye and cut and beautify is what?


i spent about 3 and a half hours last night bleaching, washing, putting pink dye in, then washing, blowdrying and styling my sisters hair. i must admit that it looks good. the whole time i was thinking, "why did i agree to do this?"but she asked me to and i agreed and had to follow through on my promise to her. i used to think i wanted to go to Cosmotology school and be a beautician. but i dont like wearing makeup too much and i like doing my hair but i cant seem to get that into it when doing someone elses hair. like cutting or simple styles. i LOVE to do formal hair styles. to me it is considered art. i can create and make it look unique. i only get a few chances to do that though when prom or winter formal come up. so i would have to say that now Cosmotology is not one of my passions. i did have fun though with my sister and i havent laughed thathard in i dont even know when. its been a while. she can make me laugh so hard i am literally crying, and she doesnt even have to do anything. i love her, and am glad she is my sister. =]

the holidays...

i had the most awful day yesterday. i used to think that if i was nice and polite then people would see it and be the same way back to me. usually that is whathappens... but when you work somewhere like i do, [Mervyns] which is going out of buisness in a few days [5 days to be exact], you see peoples true colors. i got called a B-word and told i was pulling a race card becasue i asked to see the inside of the bag of a "african american" woman. i almost laughed. how can i be pulling a race card when i do the same thing to mexicans and white people too?? thats is what she said though and then told me she had half a mind to return her things and get her money back... i almost laughed out loud. i wanted to tell her she was stupid becasue she was just told that all sales are final. NO EXCEPTIONS... i would have liked to see her try to return them...

peter and i at the thanksgiving dinner

we had fun!

living Christmas Tree

is a pagent put on by a church in Banning [ Life Point Church] and it is wonderful... as my sister put it, "i feel like im in a 7th Heaven episode" the music was fun and cute to watch and the preaching wasnt so bad. i respect other churches and am not one to put down anothers faith because in the grand scheme of things we are all praying to the same God. this is a time of Year to celebrate the Birth of our Savior and although i was not in one of our church buildings i really did feel the spirit. they have their hearts in the right place and i understand that. it was a program that you could tell they worked for a long time on. the christmas tree was amazing, i have apicture of it but not when it was all lit up....

my Deal

when someone says

what is your deal?

.:angry tone:. i always think in my head, what is my deal?
how many times have i had a thought in my head that has nothing to do with anything around me, sometimes I think I have a mind of a child. i am easily amused which is why i like weird and funny songs with out profanity, dumb little Christmas movies that i have watched with my family for years, i talk to my animals sometimes as if they can answer me back, and i am pleased with the simple things in life. i am not an expensive girl, in no way shape or form, i have lived through tough times as i am sure many people have and i don't see it as a set back. of course i would like for my future children to have better than i did but i already knew they will for the little fact that i [as their birth mother] will love them more than anything in the world. also even before they are born they will have it better than i had it. my birth mother [Suezan] was not married to my father [Jose] when any one of us 3 kids were brought into this world. she smoke drank and did drugs while pregnant. will i do any of those things? NO.. i will be married before i start a family, i don't drink and smoke and i will never do drugs. i can go back even further, for my mother was not a member of a church that i know of. she did not have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in her life. may i one up her already. i belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am so proud to be a member and be raised in this church by my wonderful Mother Tanya. I try not to dwell on the fact that the world is crumbling because i cant help it. i cant change the fact that people years ago did not think before they took out serious actions in the government that i have no idea about in the first place. i know i should be worrying about this hard time and yet i am content with living my life the way i always have. and i can do that. i don't spend money like its going out of style, because it already has gone out, since i was not raised to be frivolous with my money. yes it is hard and i struggle with it but i don't go crazy. i will continue to go to church like we have been told that we should. i will continue to pray and read my scriptures because i have been told to and know that it is the right thing to do. i will continue to love my family through all the grief that they give me because at the end of they day they are still my family. i will continue to love Peter and watch it grow on a daily basis because i do love him and i do want to be with him for the rest of my life and the one hereafter. that's me. simple. secure. [sometimes].
that, is my deal