hair

and the reason we dye and cut and beautify is what?


i spent about 3 and a half hours last night bleaching, washing, putting pink dye in, then washing, blowdrying and styling my sisters hair. i must admit that it looks good. the whole time i was thinking, "why did i agree to do this?"but she asked me to and i agreed and had to follow through on my promise to her. i used to think i wanted to go to Cosmotology school and be a beautician. but i dont like wearing makeup too much and i like doing my hair but i cant seem to get that into it when doing someone elses hair. like cutting or simple styles. i LOVE to do formal hair styles. to me it is considered art. i can create and make it look unique. i only get a few chances to do that though when prom or winter formal come up. so i would have to say that now Cosmotology is not one of my passions. i did have fun though with my sister and i havent laughed thathard in i dont even know when. its been a while. she can make me laugh so hard i am literally crying, and she doesnt even have to do anything. i love her, and am glad she is my sister. =]

the holidays...

i had the most awful day yesterday. i used to think that if i was nice and polite then people would see it and be the same way back to me. usually that is whathappens... but when you work somewhere like i do, [Mervyns] which is going out of buisness in a few days [5 days to be exact], you see peoples true colors. i got called a B-word and told i was pulling a race card becasue i asked to see the inside of the bag of a "african american" woman. i almost laughed. how can i be pulling a race card when i do the same thing to mexicans and white people too?? thats is what she said though and then told me she had half a mind to return her things and get her money back... i almost laughed out loud. i wanted to tell her she was stupid becasue she was just told that all sales are final. NO EXCEPTIONS... i would have liked to see her try to return them...

peter and i at the thanksgiving dinner

we had fun!

living Christmas Tree

is a pagent put on by a church in Banning [ Life Point Church] and it is wonderful... as my sister put it, "i feel like im in a 7th Heaven episode" the music was fun and cute to watch and the preaching wasnt so bad. i respect other churches and am not one to put down anothers faith because in the grand scheme of things we are all praying to the same God. this is a time of Year to celebrate the Birth of our Savior and although i was not in one of our church buildings i really did feel the spirit. they have their hearts in the right place and i understand that. it was a program that you could tell they worked for a long time on. the christmas tree was amazing, i have apicture of it but not when it was all lit up....

my Deal

when someone says

what is your deal?

.:angry tone:. i always think in my head, what is my deal?
how many times have i had a thought in my head that has nothing to do with anything around me, sometimes I think I have a mind of a child. i am easily amused which is why i like weird and funny songs with out profanity, dumb little Christmas movies that i have watched with my family for years, i talk to my animals sometimes as if they can answer me back, and i am pleased with the simple things in life. i am not an expensive girl, in no way shape or form, i have lived through tough times as i am sure many people have and i don't see it as a set back. of course i would like for my future children to have better than i did but i already knew they will for the little fact that i [as their birth mother] will love them more than anything in the world. also even before they are born they will have it better than i had it. my birth mother [Suezan] was not married to my father [Jose] when any one of us 3 kids were brought into this world. she smoke drank and did drugs while pregnant. will i do any of those things? NO.. i will be married before i start a family, i don't drink and smoke and i will never do drugs. i can go back even further, for my mother was not a member of a church that i know of. she did not have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in her life. may i one up her already. i belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am so proud to be a member and be raised in this church by my wonderful Mother Tanya. I try not to dwell on the fact that the world is crumbling because i cant help it. i cant change the fact that people years ago did not think before they took out serious actions in the government that i have no idea about in the first place. i know i should be worrying about this hard time and yet i am content with living my life the way i always have. and i can do that. i don't spend money like its going out of style, because it already has gone out, since i was not raised to be frivolous with my money. yes it is hard and i struggle with it but i don't go crazy. i will continue to go to church like we have been told that we should. i will continue to pray and read my scriptures because i have been told to and know that it is the right thing to do. i will continue to love my family through all the grief that they give me because at the end of they day they are still my family. i will continue to love Peter and watch it grow on a daily basis because i do love him and i do want to be with him for the rest of my life and the one hereafter. that's me. simple. secure. [sometimes].
that, is my deal

in need of some serious Madea time!

i have this sudden urge to go rent and watch some good Madea plays!

Finals...

this is the point where i realize how much more i should have been paying attention in class, or how much more i should have been reading my textbook, or taking better notes..[even though i have spiral notebooks filled with notes from this semester alone] ... and now it comes the time to test what i know. all i can do now is pray... and pray hard!!!

where i wanna be...

so i can clear all thoughts out of my head and enjoy the peaceful sound of the waves and the seagulls and just listen to the sound of nature. it helps me to be calm.

because some times that is all i want to do... then i remember that you are not worth it.

one of my many complexes...

i think to much about how people feel and take things that i say. i wish i could get over it and just not care so much, but its just that even when someone i do not care for talks to me i get mad even though i shouldnt. why do i do that? im human i know and have these human tendencies but then i remember Jesus said to love all men and forgive all men. how come then i cant see mto shake my feelings of dislike?

ill continue to work on it.

magic castle... and LA

Long Time No Post...

So i fell in love. I avoided it for a while and played it off, but in the end i couldnt help but tell him how i felt. things have been going GREAT ever since! we Love each other and I know he is the one i am going to marry. Apaarently everyone else knew it before we did. which i think is funny! i have turned into that girl thati used to talk about. i cant stand to be away from him and when we dont see each other i feel a void. i like that we were friends for a while before we got together becasue he is my best friend now. i cant even express how much i love him and cant wait to be his wife, after we go to the temple.

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