change...

wow i feel like my future is being decided today. there is so much going on that its like a whirlwind of events, this election is probably the most important thing in my entire life up to this point. today and the whole Prop 8 is going to determine whether i can get married in the temple i want to or if i will have to go to another state to do it in. i dont want to go to anyother state other than right here in my own "backyard" to get married in one of the temples here. i know some people are outwardly expressive about prop 8 and that is fine with me. i am more of an inward thinker. i havent gotten as involved as i know i could have but in my heart i know what is right and i pray very strongly that it passes. to me this Same Sex prop is more important than the actual selecting of a president as far as im concerned. i have spent more time "campaigning" for the YES on prop 8 than i have on promoting who i want for president, because quite frankly i dont think either one of the candidates are any good. i wont go into that becasue its all about my own personal thoughts on each one but i think the country is Doomed with either one of them coming into power.
i let Peter get all worked up about it becasue he knows so much more than i do and i get to hear his thoughts and ideas on this whole thing and its comforting to knwo that he says almost what ever i am thinking about all this. i had written a blog on here a while back in which i was talking about boyfriends and how girls seem to always want them around and how i am good with out someone. well like i said in that blog i was not in that situation and didnt know, maybe it would happen to me... well that time has come and i do have Peter and i seriously hate to be away from him. when he is around it calms me down and i feel like there is no one else in the world when we are tlaking about us and tentitive plans for the future. i feel like i have been with him for the longest time and its only been a short time that we have actually been together. i kept dancing around it but as soon as i kinda said screw everyone else i want to be happy, things worked out and im glad they did. i cant see my self with anyone else who makes me feel the way he makes me feel. i appreciate him and how he is always there for me. someone at church was commenting on our testimonies and said they liked how passionate Peter was when he went up and then how calm i was when i went up [even though i turned all red because my heart was beating so fast becasue i felt the spirit stronger that i ever had in my life] and i told them yes we do balance each other out quite nicely. and we do... i think ill keep him....
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