i agree... =]

i came across this quote and i agree with it =]... i like to think that this is how i am...or at least i know it is how i want to be


“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

do you remember when,

life was so simple? when all we had to worry about was whose drive way we were going to play with chalk on, or were we going to ride our bikes really really fast down the street or just kinda slow, or how many times around the neighborhood we were going to go. i remember one of the biggest things was trying to decide whose house we would play Barbies at. i had a big collction and cars and a HUGE house my dad made for me, but my friend Missy, had about the same if not bigger collection. each one of us always wanted to play with the other persons Barbies at their house. i sure do miss the simple days. now kids are having to figure out Wii systems and as they get older are now being introduced to mroe and more awful things. i wish we could go back a few years...

Earthquakes

tonight while i was at LoLos house there was an earthquake. it shook from the bottom of the house and i could hear it rumbling before i felt it. i thought someone was jumping on the stairs before i realized what it was.

earthquakes scare me but i never told too many people becasue i dont want them to say, "oh suck it up, its not like the earth is going to open up and swallow you" becasue that may just happen.. .you dont know... they are just scary and i kind of freak out inside... i got im my car to leave and started crying while i was driving and i dont know why. i just know that i wanted to be with peter at that moment, but he was across town and i guess was checking on baby sara, making sure she was ok, when i had to ask him if he was ok,i just wanted to say to him that i felt so alone. but i didnt because i didnt want him to worry about me. i try to be tough...

but anyway i just dont like earthquakes...

New year... still same ole me...

Isn't it funny how at the beginning of the New Year everyone has plans to change themselves so they can be better, or so they wont be the same as last year?
I enjoy being myself. I don't change for anyone and when I do change it is for me. =] When I look around at all the people I used to know in 2008, I am sad to say that I don't talk to, or would rather not talk to. that is one change I had to make. you can never hang out with people who bring you down. Some of them I had gone through some hard times in my life and helped with hard times in their lives. I sometimes think that I end up being the better friend, only because I know in my heart that my intentions are in the right place. sounds like I am tooting my own horn huh? I'm not trying to, but I do realize that after being a friend to someone who doesn't ever let you know that they appreciate what you do, and always take and take and take, that that is not a healthy type of person to be around. I have always been a giver. I will give until the day that I die. I have a lot of love in my heart and have a hard time telling people NO. I want to please everyone. I always have.

this is a random thought, but I was watching a movie recently, and a man bought a bouquet of flowers for this girl, someone he had been friends with for along time, and I was trying to think in my head, was it a special holiday? why did he buy her flowers? turns out he was just so happy that she had come home from a trip and wanted to give her something nice. how sweet is that? I don't think men should buy their girls flowers all the time but every once in a while it is nice. to show how much someone means to you that you thought of them when you saw a flower. Flowers are delicate and sweet. I intend to surround my home with flowers because they have been known to change the mood of the room. I want my home to be light and full of love. what a special way to make it like that. if everyone just had flowers what a wonderful day I believe we would have. =]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009, this is going to be a good year i can feel it =]