10.29.2008

pumpkin carving!

tonight my boyfriend [wow! i know right!!!!] and i carved a master piece! he did the poking of the dots and i cut them out...

as this was all happening we were talking and laughing and being silly with my mom who i love todeath. during all this i was thinking how as we go through life we "poke" out our Dots and make the path for our lives. then as we go through we cut out our pieces and hope they come out enough that the light can shine through. i decided i need to work on the cutting of the pieces in my life. sometimes we do not get all of it out and have to go back and with a more steady hand, perfect what we could not do on the first try. in the end we hope our carvings match the picture and everything is in the right place and things were done correctly.

all in all i think that i am doing an okay job and im working on making my hand more steady.

our pumpkin turned out great... we make a good team.... i think ill keep him! ;]

10.27.2008

our song...... by John Legend

"Save Room"


Say that you'll stay a little
dont say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love
is worth a moment of your time.
Knockin' on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning
oh I know I'll keep it burning bright
if your stay, wont you save, save


Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me


This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
dont be afraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need if you stay
won't you save, save


Oh c'mon, make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try, ill keep you satisfied if you stay
won't you save, save


10.26.2008

new beginings... sad endings...

These past few days i have felt just awful, feeling something just wasnt right. i thought about what it might be and thought that since i am not so good at my emotions or expressing them to others that that was what was wrong. i semi picked a argument and said alot of thingsi shouldnt have to someone i do truly care alot about. but it didnt take away that sense of "something being wrong", so i felt bad, prayed about it, and saw the light. i have been afraid. too afraid to be better, not i made a choice and im feeling TONS better about it. but the something wrong feeling still not gone, i was getting frustrated and upset with this feeling. then i got a phone call from an aunt that i havent spoken to in 8 years. What a strong woman she is, she called to ask me for Angels number and my tia Cheyo`s number. as i was giving her the number for my tia, i explained that i didnt know where Angel was at. that he had left our family and no one really knows where he is. then i asked what she needed their numbers for after 8 years? she told me that my cousin, her oldest daughter Christina, passed away. i was shocked! the ni asked if she would mind telling how it happened and when it happened, she said that Christina committed suicide after having Post Pardum Depression and that her baby was only 4 months old. then she told me that Christina took her life in JULY. i was even more shocked! we talked about the whole fmaily and things that have happened in the time since i last saw her at her other daughter, Jackie`s, graaduation. lots of catching up to do. last night was eventful, i was able to open up a little more to Peter, and im really glad i did. =]
its a new begining for me and im happy about it!

10.23.2008

"missing"

i feel like im missing something.... i cant put my finger on it but i am missing something.... gotta find out what it is... cuz its drivin me CRAZY!

10.20.2008

im not so good

at keeping up with this now... seems like i never have enough time!

first, i am super busy studying for mid terms which i have three coming up here really soon!

first one is in Sign! UGH!!! i dont feel like im coming along with that one at all! i know alittle but my brain is processing it at super slow speed! how am i supposed to do this??!!?? anyway im slowly VEYR VERY VERY slowly working on it!

sencond one is in history of Western Civilizations, which is going ok... just tons of time lines to remember!

Third is in History of ancient greece! that one i am totally interested in except i always feel like im missing something... like the teacher said something that went over my head!

then im busy working, as much as i can... and just found out that the store i work at is CLOSING.... all the whole chain of stores are closing! so now its time to find a new job and compete with all the christmas rush to get a seasonal job becasue something is DEFINITELY better than nothing!

this was a good small release, but i am going to be late for class if i dont get out of here so ill write more later!

10.18.2008

super busy....

i havent had much time to write on here but i have afew things i know i want to talk about.... i have just been so wrapped up with sudying hard core for school, i didnt realize how far behind i actually was, and work, and family stuff... getting ready for another day at court on the 31st! how weird to have court on halloween! anyway ill come back on here and write about all this stuff because i need to get it all out! yay for blogs!

10.08.2008

=]

its like ... nice!

10.06.2008

The Alliance by Gerald N Lund.

im starting it today and ill update when i finish the book and let you know what i thought... also its the new reading material for the Relief Society Book Club... we will see what others think about it too... so until later!

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10.04.2008

the Freedom Factor :Gerald Lund

is sooo good!!1 i finished it in about 2 hours maybe... [cuz i had to take breaks to do some chore things around the house]

i now look at the united states constitution in a whole new light! im so glad that there were a few good men who were willing to shape our foundation! i wont go into it, maybe when i re`read it sometime in the future ill come back an update this, but know it is a really good story!

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my new decisions!

i have decided to change my theme on here from talking about my problems ALL of the time!

now i am going to read and write... thats right!

im starting to get WAY back into reading and i would like to write what i think about the books on here...
no i wont be talking about Twilight... becasue although i thinkk its a good series, its already been talked about enough...

to start im reading a book recommended by the Herrick family... [actually all the books im reading as of now are recommended by the Herrick family]...

Title :The Freedom Factor
Author :Gerald N Lund

thats just so you know what book im starting with.. ill be posting up my thoughts AFTER i finish reading the book. hopefully i can make enough time to actually read the books like i want!
STAY TUNED!!!

AND.............


if you have read the books, then leave me a tid bit of info that you have on the book or thoughts you aquired while reading the book... if you havent read it then maybe you would want to read it too!


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10.03.2008

procrastinating

i keep coming on here to write but then i get distracted and pulled away to other things...

things i am grateful for

*my real friends... the ones i dont have drama with or am able to talk to and settle any hurt feelings with!
* my mom -for putting up with all my drama and anxiety and problems in general!
*my church, for strengthening me when i need it and allowing me to perform service for others!
*my car for not breaking down and being reliable!
*my phone, to keep in contact with my friends and loved ones!
*you for reading this... even though you dont have to because honestly who cares what i say???

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